A Safe Place to Talk About Everything
This is a super-late writing to close the #15DayWritingChallenge with my office mates. Actually it was ended 5 days ago, but I just have the chance to write again after having such a long trip home. I know it is risky to travel during a pandemic time. But just a few weeks ago I also traveled for work-related matter. So why not travel for my family. Besides I missed the twins so bad. They almost turns two and now learning to speak. Just three months ago when I left, they can barely say a word! Oh, they are my nieces.
Well, I’m supposed to talk about the writing challenge. I can say I’m proud of myself to score 15-0:tada:! It means I write consistently every day during the program. Given the fact that I almost never write much for the last two years (upon checking the last post on my blog), this is obviously a big leap for me. When I saw the post on Slack, honestly I didn’t intend to join because I can’t trust myself for such commitment, but thanks for the little nudging from Kak Ivan Nashara, I have the faith in me. You might be surprised how a simple act affects the life of others even when you didn’t realize it.
About the content of my writing, normally I pick something that I enjoy writing, except for the given topic on certain days, I have no choice but to talk about it. But they all have similarity: I only write everything that I want to read. I didn't give much thought whether people will like it or not, because I write for myself. Yes I am that selfish when it comes to writing, but when I write for someone else, it means they are special. In my little world, write for someone and write about someone is different.
I found peace in writing. To be who I am, to be vulnerable without being afraid to be attacked. Thank you for creating such a safe environment.
Later I find out a writing will find their own reader when it shared on the right platform. For example when I write about my job as Finance Business Partner, I got no clap on Medium where I originally posted it. But when I shared it on LinkedIn, many people react to my post. Even my former supervisor shared her comment. At first I thought it wasn’t good enough. But I am sure I spent more time and effort for it. Then I said this to my inner self: since when we put other people opinion on top of our own belive system! Another thing I learn from this, not entirely the same case but sometimes people don’t appreciate your work, and believe me it is fine because you don’t need their validation. Pardon me if I sound so self-centered but this is a way for me to be kind with myself. Everyone has their own battle and this is mine :). This way, I don’t put other people appreciation as my end goal, but if they do, and even better give any feedback, I am more than happy to hear it.
Another thing I am grateful for this program is I can beat my high-level-procrastination trait.
In my case, procrastination is not a sign of perfection, I just lazy and I know it. So, when I said yes, I knew the consequences. I am glad I was pushed to write everyday. Even though it means I have to sacrifice my sleep, the highest level of sacrifice, because normally I started writing around 9 and normally it ended until midnight. And because of Ramadhan, I have to wake up there hours after that. Then have an office work in the morning. And here I am: still pretty much alive!
Now as I am taking more time with family and friends at home. I might won't write as often as before, but I also will take the time to enjoy other's writing counted to around 300 articles!
See you around.
